Time comes and time goes

I realize it's been awhile. My computer is down again. I have to back everything up to my external harddrive with Johns help, which we haven't found time to get yet.

I had my last  Chemo treatment last Monday and have also been very busy recovering from that...My fingers are extremely sensitive and sore so typing is painful. Doing anything with my hands pretty much just hurts. Then there's the whole weakness, fatigue and stuff. But that is pretty much past. I feel so much better today than I did three days ago. Not counting sore fingers and toes.

Mom was here to help during the down time so I was able to relax, take bathes, lay on the couch and in general, be lazy....ooops I mean, spend time recovering. It does feel like being lazy. This time around though was the worst and I felt like crap!!!! I can see how people get to a point where they want to give up. I almost felt like I  could do just that last Friday! Thank goodness it passes (for me anyway) and I feel more positive now as I get better. And when I talk about "getting better", it's all relative. I mostly mean getting better from the effects of Chemo. Getting better from the actual "cancer" still remains to be seen.

I have a CT scan in January! Praying for nothing less than good results....more shrinkage, and disappearance of the lesions in my lungs. I would be pleased, as would my family, with total disappearance! Wouldn't that be grand? Then on to keeping them gone. Whew.

I have goals, plans, ideas, places to see, a Son to raise. Birthdays to celebrate and Christmas's to bake for.

I have family to spend time with, vacations to go on, gardens to plant, Service to provide. The list could go on and on. I pray God's plan for me runs somewhat parallel to my plan for me. HAHAHA.

Sorry no pics this time. When I get my computer cleaned up there will be pictures. In the meantime, I am on to carry on with my day.

May this Christmas Season bring you all much joy and love, not to mention Blessings!!!

Love,

Dani

Now, moving right along...

Trying to be "tough" with new haircut

It took two tries, but we finally got the haircut we wanted. Though we are both missing the long hair. Littleman...uh, huh...I mean Ironman knows it will grow back!



Blackberry pie, and banana bread (with blueberries and without)

Two of the yummy's I baked for Thanksgiving. Ironman (littleman), insists blueberries are good for killing the germs in my body, so I use them when I can.




Tony Stark is in the kitchen!

Helping with apples for Apple Crisp! I didn't get a pic of it, but boy did it turn out wonderful. not only did it look good, but it tasted divine!




one of those naps I mentioned in previous entry!



Tony Stark AKA Ironman, and Kaili Girl! Oh I wish it was me.

Lovin' the new haircut!

Overall it was a GREAT weekend. I wasn't feeling my best, but I pushed through. Treatments are really taking a toll on my body. Neuropathy is getting worse and sometimes my legs feel numb even above my knees. My fingers and toes are sore all the time. I can't wait for this last treatment on the 6th of December. I am taking a break!!!!!

I'm so looking forward to that, and maybe by Christmas I will feel almost normal.

After that I am not sure which route I will be taking.

I have been researching books, and documentary programs about diet and how our body can heal itself through diet. Everything I am reading runs parallel and it's very interesting. Even though the authors of the books have different training, different names for what they are promoting, it all looks very similar and the underlying theory is that our body can heal itself with the right Diet.

So, who's diet do I adopt? Do I combine them all? They are very similar with a few exceptions...so how to know which ONE is the one to use? I want healing....and I want it soon. I will keep studying, and learning, and praying about it.

Now I must get on with my Tuesday.

Blessings to you all.

Dani

Short but Sweet

Kaili (my daughter) came home for Thanksgiving. It was a short visit, but always sweet. She did get to come a night early, but then left a night early.

While she was here we played with the Bearded Dragon, made cookie dough which we never got to bake together. Kaili took naps with and without her little brother.

She went shopping with me on "Black Friday" and let me tell you that was not very exciting! We didn't go early, we didn't buy much, we didn't stay long, we didn't have much money! LOL

Thanksgiving day of course there was cooking, setting the table, and eating. Then clean up.

 Or did we nap first?

 cAn't even remember now.

On Saturday Kaili went out with her boyfriend and learned the basics of snowboarding. She has been wanting to do this for years. She said it was fun...she loves loves loves it. Hmmm....Guess I got her the wrong thing for Christmas. oooops;....sorry Kaili! Then she came home, packed, and left! So so sad however, my Littleman so wise in his youth....gently reminded me she would be back soon, for Christmas so I shouldn't be sad.

Mmmmm... gotta love my kids. I DO!

So Grateful for them.

And my husband....

my home,

my family,

my friends,

my saviour,

My Life!

A Great Day for Thanksgiving!!!!!

Happy Thanksgiving to ALL.
What are you thankful for?
Me, well I am thankful for Family far and wide,
kids who love me despite my sometimes lopsided parenting skills,
A Husband who loves me beyond measure!
I am also thankful for my Heavenly Father who loves me know matter what,
And a Saviour who attoned for my sins...thank goodness cus I have many!
I am thankful for the love they have for me and the ability to help me heal my body.
I am thankful for a new day every 24 hours in which to redeem myself and have more time to play with my wonderfully fun son.
I am thankful for Johns career and the insurance that helps us pay the bills.
I am thankful for my home which keeps us warm, safe, and dry.
I am thankful for all this and more.
What are you thankful for?

Again, Happy Thanksgiving to all.
Love and blessings,
Dani

Time Well Spent

Uh...I wasn't quite ready....

Someone got a haircut!

And he thinks it's scary?....tough?...too cool?...

But I think he's happy with it.

 Oh sooooo handsome! He was so cute while at the hairdressers. He wouldn't stop talking to the young woman cutting his hair. He introduced himself first as Ironman, then proceeded to explain to her how he wanted his hair....like Tony Stark, and about his siblings, and he commented on her hair. He went on to talk about other things I can't even remember now. I was laughing, and the people in the waiting area who were listening were chuckling themselves. I like his haircut also, but I do already MISS his long hair. IT was "growing" on me. hahaha.

IT was a good Saturday. Before the haircut, we went and saw Megamind the movie. Pretty good. Littleman really liked it. It was good to get out of the house with my family and do something besides errands. Going to the dump or walmart just isn't the bonding experience I enjoy.

Unfortunately the one place we needed to go but didn't make time for was the gym. I haven't been in a while, I NEED to go.

Tomorrow I go for treatment #12. 12? Hmmmm, where has the time gone? Well no matter, I'm going to pray it's been time well spent...I know I have been able to see my mom and dad way more than usual, and that's a good thing. And I spent so much time with my brother this summer, time I would never trade for anything! IT was great.

Now it's time to start getting my body strong again since I have a break coming up and I want to be strong if we have to go round #2 with Chemo.

All in all, the past 8 months has involved much Time Well Spent!!!

Light at the end of the tunnel

Whew! I feel like there is light at the end of the tunnel. In more ways than one.
I have been feeling crappy for the last few days due to a stomach bug. It is finally going away and I feel like I might feel normal soon.

Normal...I use that word loosely.

I am finally feeling better after the last treatment...only to go in for another one on Monday!!! haha, the joke may be on me. I am the one who asked for Monday rather then waiting till Wednesday. Darn..oh well.

As you can see I have changed up my blog page. needed something new and a little different. I love books so I found this page with books on it. I also learned how to make a photo collage (?) for the header.

Well, Littleman is up...it's 10:45 what is up with that? Let's all have a great day.

Blessings and peace with each of us.
Dani

Blustery Business

It's a blustery windy day here at home. A good day to stay home and bake....

Or in my case, do laundry, dishes, and general house cleaning.

Maybe later on in the day I will have time to actually bake something. Not that I need anything I would bake! But it always makes the house smell so delicious. I am into delicious smells. I don't always even eat what I bake...ok well at least not all of it. I usually share, but it brings me joy to bake and I love the smells.

My daughter is coming home for the holidays and we plan on doing some holiday baking together. It makes me feel normal to bake and cook. When I have the energy.

Speaking of energy...I haven't had much the last 6 days so today feels pretty good. Though I will probably crash tonight. I will have to take a nap if Littleman will take quiet time....

I am looking for ways to reduce stress in my life and bring more peace and joy into my day to day routine. I have been reading so many books with similar ideas and some contradictory ones that I have been feeling confused lately. I want to do WHATEVER I can to help my body heal, however, I might draw the line at 100% raw live food intake...I mean really, no sweets?~ I recognize that I am addicted to chocolate and sweets in general. And of course every author thinks THEY are right! So which way to go? Which author to take seriously?

Which method to try?

There are so many tools in the box, I don't even know which one to use first, or which one to pick up.

I guess I do because I am at least reading the books, and then have to make decisions from there. the books are the first tools. But inside them are numerous others.

I know the number one main tool I need to focus on and that is my scriptures! And my faith. When I was in the hospital after my surgery back in April, there was a large picture on the wall in the hallway and it was a surgeon working on his patient with Jesus standing over his shoulder, his hand on the Doctors. The caption read: "The Master Physician" I think...haha, something similar.When I first saw it I just stood there looking at it, wanting to take it home and hang it on my own wall.

He is the ultimate healer! I JUST PRAY that He has in the plan to heal me for a long time.