HOPE

I have three weeks off now. Not scheduled for treatment until Dec 30th. I have a CT scan on the 23rd. I have been having a lot of mixed feelings about doing treatment on the 30th. My side effects are getting bad enough to be really annoying, and sucking the life out of me, if feels like sometimes anyway. I used to be such a strong person. Now I rarely want to leave the house. Well, I want to, but don't feel well enough to make it worth it.

I am like my son...a homebody! And having company? Oh gosh, that means having to get out of my P.J.s and get dressed. It could be partly due to winter and the cold/dark days, but I think it has more to do with how I feel. Weak, uncomfortable, numb, nauseous. 

I read about  a place in Mexico where they have you come for three weeks and do all these amazing sounding alternative treatments and I want to go. 

http://biocarehospital.com/index.html

In case you feel inclined to research it yourself.

It would mean more fundraising for me, as it isn't cheap...but if it made me feel better, stronger, and helped build up my strong cells to fight off the cancer cells then it couldn't do me any more harm then Chemo does. If fact, it wouldn't do any harm at all. I spoke with a gentleman from Alaska who went there two years ago and he is still cancer free today. He was amazed at how they were able to help him. His Faith also plays a big role in his remission. 

I feel more of a sense of hope as I daydream about this place. I like to close my eyes and visualize the things they would do and how my healthy cells would regrow, become stronger again, do what they are supposed to do. With Chemo that will never happen. 

We need more options like this in America. I can get some of these things done by my naturopath, but not all of them, and not all at the same time. 

So, check out the website if you have a moment, I would love to hear your comments and thoughts about it. I always love hearing from you! 

Merry Christmas!

Danielle