These are just a few of my precious moments! I have so many I could sit here for days and load pictures and write....and still not be done.
|Having fun with webcam 2008|
|Making faces 2008|
|smooches all around. 2008|
Excellent observation my boy!!!! I am in total agreeance.
Then in a conversation last week. Damon to me, "Mom, you are gonna die, I will miss you when you go to heaven. " I replied, "I will miss you too!" Damon said, "Mom when you die you will get to go to lots of different worlds!" I stated, " Well I am excited about that, but I am more excited to be here with you and Daddy for now." "Mom, when you die I will miss you, and Daddy and I will be sad, we will cry all day, and when we go to bed, and when we wake up we will still be crying."
And it went on for a few more comments, but where do kids get this stuff? I don't remember being so direct with him about my illness so where he gets these ideas is beyond me. I PRAY he isn't some future Prophet because he seems to think this is going to happen this summer. hmmmnmn, I wholeheartedly disagree.
At least it won't be from being sick.
Let me tell you something though...from deep inside. Don't let my smile fool you! I am still SCARED. I know I am clean right now, but how long will it last? How long will I be blessed to raise my wonderful son?
Like I heard someone say yesterday, "I don't have control over how long I live, but I have control over how I live." Pregnant mom fighitng cancer.
Life is SO Precious and yet it is easy to get caught up in our fears, our desires, our jobs, our thoughts.
I feel so compassionate towards one of my best friends, Anna. I pray for her often. She has two family members now dealing with stage IV cancer, and a few friends fighting also, including me. It's all around her.
Here's a scripture I love...
"If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given to him."
or similarly in the Book of Mormon,
"Yea, I know that God will give liberally to him that asketh. Yea, My God will give me, if I ask not amiss: therefore I will lift up my voice unto thee,: yea I will cry unto thee, my God, the rock of my righteousness. Behold my voice shall forever ascend up unto thee, my rock and mine everlasting God. Amen."
So, Ask and ye shall recieve!!!!!
Ask with Faith in your heart, believing always!
Just don't be fooled. I DO have faith and believe that I will be healthy for awhile, however I am still Scared. Will it be long enough? Maybe this isn't about me at all, maybe it's about the people who love me. Maybe there is something for them to learn. Whatever it is, I pray my Heavenly Father will provide a way, and I know he will, for all of us to get through!
Peace, blessings, and love to each of you!!!!