Have you ever had a love/hate relationship with anyone or anything? It's a stressful thing. It can be a wonderful thing in it's time. Mostly though, just stressful and thought provoking. I am currently having a love/hate relationship with my treadmill...ok really maybe it's just my body I have this relationship with....? I have to think about this a minute.
Ok, I DO have that relationship with my body ( I know Susan, I hear you now...stop worrying about your body when you have "bigger" things to concern yourself with!!!) but at this very moment the primary Love/Hate relationship is with my treadmill.
I got on it to walk and promptly started sweating and breathing hard. What? I thought walking was easy and therapuetic? hahaha the joke is on me. Walking is not easy when you haven't done it in a long time and you aren't feeling well due to many reasons. Not the least of which is having poisonous chemicals in ones body. And a cough over a month old, and weak muscles due to lack of exercise, and no will power, and no fun work out partner, and and and.....
AND I am going to fight through this Love/Hate relationship because I need strong muscles, and lungs, and I need to feel better while having chemicals put into my body. I need to help do my part to fight this "flippin" C. I want to feel strong again. It makes me sad, longing for winter of 09/10 when my Really good friend in Kodiak, Amy, and I worked out almost every morning that winter. We would hit the gym at 5:30am like a religion. We walked, ran, lifted weights, rode, stretched, did the precor, swam, on and on and on we did this and each lost a bunch of weight and started feeling strong and great. I want to feel that again!!! Amy can you come here? I need you and the gym! I need it to be that easy again...short drive, get in and get home before John even has to get up for work.
It seems I have a long way to go. I have obstacles to overcome. I have work to DO!!!
See you down the road.
Dani
Two Scriptures to think on.
1 Corinthians 13:7 "Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things."
Hebrews 6:15 "And so, after he had patiently endured, he obtained the promise."
I'm gonna get on the treadmill this morning and I'll be thinking of you Danielle!
ReplyDeleteJust to clarify smarty:) I think a focus on how your body feels and how much you weigh are two completely different things. The amazing thing is once you start walking and feeling stronger the number on the scale doesn't matter as much. I totally understand that you want to feel strong in your body and I support that 100%!! I've gotten back on the elliptical since I've been lacking in the walks: now I'll thnk of you on the treadmill:)- just go slow and forget about what you used to be able to do the important thing is that you are moving now and making your body stronger now:) Love you lady!!
ReplyDeleteP.S. Episodes of Friends makes the time fly by and it is so stinkin' funny
Two days in a row I have done the 3 mile walk with those dvd's you told me about a long time ago (sans one)?. Thinking of you all the way! Remember when you used to give me pep talks when I was getting ready to go into the Peace Corps? Call me, and I will return the favor! I love you with every breath that I take and will until eternity and beyond!
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