It's a sad day for me. I have been doing a lot of thinking, and weighing of options, and self talking. I have been having a really diffucult time lately at home with everything that 's going on, and honestly, with Damon~! He has been trying my patience to the max, and pushing every botton I have....repeatedly.
So, as many of you know I have been planning on homeschooling DAmon for years now. Well, today that all changed. I have decided that for now...a few months, or the whole school year I am going to send him to Kindergarten. He's going to ride the bus and everything. I need time to feel better emotionally and get in a "better place" with myself before I can tackle homeschooling with Damon.
This decision makes me feel very sad, but I also feel it is very necessary right now. My emotional state has been deteriorating fast and I need to get back on track...as best I can anyway.
Just to make my pride feel better...I want you to know this decision has nothing to do with not feeling competent to teach my son, and everything to do with us both getting to a better place before I am willing to try to teach him.
that's all I can say about it at this time.
Sad Panda Mamma!!!
Me and My Family
This was such a personal decision for me! I now have "decision making remorse" but am going to follow through knowing that it is temporary (short or long term to be determined) and that I love my son more than anything on this earth almost...John and Kaili I love you that much too...and mom and dad! Don't want anyone to feel left out, so what the heck, I love you all to the ends of the universe and back. Thanks for reading my blog!!!
ReplyDeleteI am so proud of you for making such a very difficult decision. And also that you can see that it is a decision for today - it doesn't have to be for all eternity. You are my hero, once again! I love you to the ends of the earth and more! Mom
ReplyDeleteI feel so relieved, for you! I know it was a hard decision to make, but you made it. Most of the time making the decision is the hardest part. I love you very much and guess what, I'll be seeing you in a month:) Dad
ReplyDeleteDon't be so hard on yourself Dani. You're not failing Damon by sending him to kindergarten. In fact, he's such a social butterfly, that I KNOW he will love it immensely. You can always homeschool later, when both you and he are ready.
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